It's all over. I ended up finishing with Sarah with a time of 32 mins. She blew by me right at the end. Totally made me realize that I am not as over my sickness as I thought I was. Oh, and cross country practice is going to be BRUTAL tomorrow. If Mrs. Mawer makes us do ten hills, I think I'm going to puke. Our team also lost to Saint Mac's, by approximately one thousand dollars which is a little disappointing, but at least we raised $11000 in the first place!:D I'm off to finish my homework and read the end of my fabulous book, Eclipse. Peace and Love.
Passing Thoughts
Do not believe because you read it in a book Do not believe because you saw it on television Do not believe because science says so Do not believe because a famous person says so Do not believe because a wise person believes in it Do not believe because your best friend believes it Do not believe because everyone else believes it Do not believe because others have believed in it for thousands of years Do not believe because you've heard it so many times before Do not believe because you are told, you must Do not believe because others expect you to Do not believe because it gets you accepted Do not believe because it will make your parents happy Do not believe because it will get you noticed Do not believe because you want to believe Do not believe because you can't afford not to Do not believe because it helps you to cope Do not believe because you must believe in something Do not believe because it makes sense Do not believe any of this...... Believe only that, ''you are'' and do not even believe that for that is, beyond belief~
Today is run for the cure day. I have NO idea what is going to happen. I can't wait! I have been sick for a week, I went to the gym on Thursday and ran for less than ten minutes and before that hadn't run for a week, I've been training with cross country though, last year my time was 25 minutes, my goal this year was third place for women, but now I still have that goal at the back of my head but I know that it doesn't matter cause I don't want to kill myself, and I'm really happy. I am going to run my freaking heart out, and if it's not good enough, it's not good enough. I hope it is, so here's to hoping! There will be an insta-update of this blog when I get back.:P I would be extremely happy with another 25 mins. I also don't know if my school's ten thousand is going to be enough to beat saint mac's. Last year we needed 12,500 to beat them. We'll see! I think they were a little late to start this year. Heh, suckers. P.S. - I PASSED MY CHEM TEST!! I GOT A 93!!! Anyway, I've got to go get my water and everything ready. THINK PINK PEOPLE! Peace and love. Think Pink - Barbie uh huh, uh huh, na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na, waohhh, na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na, waohhh, Hey girl can u hear the band?,on your feet clap your hands, now where ganna have our say, every girl has her day. yeah, hay now can u hear me sing?, girls can be anything! let me give you some good advice, listen up girl and get it right, Seek every posibility, take every opitunity, u know u got it going on, (come on come on come on )(come on come on come on ) Think Pink if your like no other girl (think pink) and u will discover girl (think pink) its your favorite colour girl, its the colour of the world (think pink) coz your like a shining star (think pink) just being who you are (think pink) ull be going very far listen to me girl, THINK PINK! na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na, waohhh, na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na, waohhh, hey girl u can be so free just be who you want to be, we girls ganna shake it up, take on the world and wake it wake it up. Seek every posibility, take every opitunity, u know u got it going on, (come on come on come on )(come on come on come on ) Think Pink if your like no other girl (think pink) and u will discover girl (think pink) its your favorite colour girl, its the colour of the world (think pink) coz your like a shining star (think pink) just being who you are (think pink) ull be going very far listen to me girl, THINK PINK! na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na, waohhh, na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na,na, waohhh, climb evry hill there is to climb, reach for the higher every time (every time) you know yougot the pwer girl, you got enough fire to light up the world, jump a little higher like i know u can, paint the town pink come on join the band,
come on come on come on,come on come on come on,come on come on come on,come on come on come on, think pink,think pink, think pink its the colour of the world think pink,think pink, think pink listen to me girl
(think pink) and u will discover girl (think pink) its your favorite colour girl, its the colour of the world (think pink) coz your like a shining star (think pink) just being who you are (think pink) ull be going very far listen to me girl, THINK PINK!
My head hurts from thinking about trying my chem review. I looked at the first question, tried a few things, failed, and stopped trying. Katie said she'd help me with it later. Today I went out to some places close to my house to pass out pre-sale letters for Yearbook Ad Sales. Went well except that Mom's at work so I had to bike and I neglected to oil the chain and pump up the tires after two years of non-usage. I ended up with the chain off the cogs a few times and some greasy hands, but nevertheless, I got the job done. I then returned home for my kraft dinner and foreboding chem. In an hour I have to babysit, so I just thought I'd come on for a little bit. I have been wanting to get on here for a few days now to talk about last week and about my recent portfolio advancements. So last week at school was pink week, to raise money for Run for the Cure, which is this Sunday, the day after a cross country meet. Kind of sucks for me so I'm just not going to try very hard at the meet. The biggest part of pink week is pink day, and this year I was pinker than ever before. I had no adversary for the pinkest girl in schoo. This year we raised over $10 000. This week I gave in my application for the Saint John Art Centre Portfolio Development Program. With this program, I am virtually guaranteed acceptance to whichever university I want. Cross your fingers, people! I will probably hear back the week of the 13th. Peace and Love.
Her
I sit Alone, Tired Watching the clouds drift by The sun slips down day into night Beneath the coldhearted orb I see her Still. Her memory haunts my dreams. Memories are all I have to hold, so I sit
This year I went to yearbook camp, like the past two years. It was on the last weekend of summer from Friday to Sunday morning. Kind of sucked that it was labour day weekend, but I had a really good time, so whatever. I had to work the Saturday in the middle too so I got away for a little bit. What sucked about the Saturday was that it was month end so I wasn't allowed to balance until after the shift was over, and some idiot came in at 12:59 and I had to help him and he had like 50 billion things to do and so I didn't get to start balancing until 1:30 and then I didn't balance at first. Ah, the life of a teller. Anyway, this is supposed to be about yearbook camp. So, as always, when we are supposed to be sleeping, Kate and I are taking pictures in our dorm. Which was COLOSSALLY better than last year's. It even had its own bathroom! We were also listening to music on Rach's iPod dock but eventually someone told us to turn it off.:P Kate in her new Quebec clothes looks altogether cool on her bed. Kate got so many new clothes from Quebec! I love them all and am quite envious of a few of her shirts that have writing on them and awesome designs that are totally my style. This shirt is more her style though, and it's awesome all the same. This was crazy. We discovered a mirror and if I took a picture of Kate from a certain angle, she didn't have any legs because they weren't reflecting in the mirror. It was quite funny. I used the mirror this time to duplicate Kate which was quite interesting also. Then the blurring experiements started with the mirror. This is Kate blurring. This is me blurring. There's something about the aura of these photographs that I really like... I think it's probably the lighting and the colour of the wood in the room. It just really went well with the feeling of the pictures and how we were feeling that night. I think if I ever see some wood like that again I will instantly go back there. Also I think if there were lights like that. They were just like the lights from our crappy dorm last year. I don't know... do you read me? Here's double time again. Kate. There were two really good ones of me this way but Kate deleted one of them when she had the camera. I was secretly upset but I didn't tell her. Here's my double photograph. Still pretty cool. This blur is intense because you can see me standing there in real life but then I'm walking through the mirror. I wonder if someone out there thinks this is as cool as I do, and I'm not just some photography freak. I am getting there though. You can kind of see my face in this one which is really intense. Anyway, enough with the mirror pictures. The next ones were fun pictures taken outside. Kate was unaware at first about this one. She had been taking a picture of the basketball. Kate, serenely taking a photo. Her silhouette, outlined by the sun at her back. An interesting shape formed out of this one. A photo I took of the flowers that were EVERYWHERE at the Rothesay Netherwood campus. They were really pretty. They're significant too because Kate and I took pictures with them last year and this year's are infinitely better. I found that really interesting and eye opening. So Yearbook camp, where we are supposed to learn about how to create page layouts, how to sell your book, how to create hype, how to organize your book, etc... became learn to become a better photographer camp. I loved it. Oh, and we watched 21, one of my favourite movies of all time. I'm sad that I will no longer have yearbook camp as it is my last year on the crazy expedition that is yearbook. But I am sure Kate and I will find other ways. I am thinking of a fall colours excursion down to the commons sometime soon, I think that would be insane. Now, I am off for a run in the rain, and when I get back I will have to force myself to tackle my insane amount of homework and pray that Andrew is feeling well enough for me to go see him tonight. Peace and love.
Imprints
When I resolve into the essence That I most truly am, I feel a deep connection With every living thing. For that which most imbues me With my identity Is somehow in the other, too, So that when I look around I see myself-reflected. Hidden in this union Is the wonderful discovery That if indeed the angels Have wings- Then so do I. And if the essence of a flower Drifts out on a gentle breeze- Then so do I. And if the midnight sky Is radiant with light- Then so am I. And if the silent mystery Somehow becomes revealed In tiny dewdrops fair- Then so will I. For every lovely thing Manifests the essence Of which I am a part, So beware, my soul, beware, And move with gentle heart Throughout this mystic veil. For if Love has left its imprint here- Then so have I!
Andrew in his new duds.:) A gorgeous sunset on the prettiest view of the windiest plain. The Fabulous Four, Headshots Night. Model Headshots at Kate's. Laughter at Kate's; Girl's Night In. Endsheet photograph for the '08-'09 KVHS Yearbook. End of Summer Fireworks not so end of summer: Cedar Ridge. The First Day: Allison and Ashley. The First Day: Alison. Yearbook Camp '08: Picture of me by Kate. The First Day: Kevin's First Time Entering in KV Style. An awesome photo Kate took at Yearbook camp. The First Day: Amazing photo Rach took. Yearbook Camp: Kate took a picture of me taking a picture. Kate's Cottage: Sunset with Kate Katie and Alison. Kate's Cottage: Experimenting with long exposures in pitch black. Kate's Cottage: Experimenting with funny lights. Sherry: Remarks on Katie's Parking Skills. It's A Party: Andrew's House. AAC Agility Nationals: Volunteering in the host town, Sussex.
The Year in Review: Photographs. Model Headshots @Kate's The French Hallway - our '07-'08 Hangout/Haunt. DramaFest. Those STUdents and UNBFers sure are funny. Band Trip '08 ---> The time of our lives. English Academics Award. Europe Trip: Monte Carlo, Monaco. Europe Trip:Katie and I, Trevi Fountain, Florence. Europe Trip:Piaza San Marco, Venizia. Europe Trip:Some mall in TO where the hockey hall of fame is. Europe Trip:The Coliseum, Roma. Europe Trip:A church in Tuscany. No joke. Europe Trip:Firenze. Europe Trip:Firenze: K,K,B,S plus Keely. Europe Trip:Leaning Tower, Piza. Europe Trip:Hotel outside Venizia. Europe Trip:Verona, Romeo and Juliet's Balcony. Europe Trip:Rigi Kulm, Switzerland. Europe Trip:TO Airport. Europe Trip:TO. Europe Trip: Verona N.B. Winterscape through a camera lens. NBIAA Track and Field Provincials: Triple Jump. KVHS. Rose, babysitting Carlin. My mural, my lifelong dream as far as KVHS is concerned. Graduation '08: Last night with Corkum. Dance Show '08: What Dreams Are Made Of, The Studio. My New Camera. THANKS DAD! Murder Mystery Party: A and B plus Tom. Murder Mystery Party: Kara, the Murderer. Splatter Party finally realized: Jessi's. YEBO Picture Taking Frenzy. English Class '07.
Again I say I'm going to try to keep this up this time. I really will try. I was just looking at my piczo website and thinking about how much I miss doing that stuff. It's also crazy how much things have changed. The last time I posted on that website, I was going into grade ten. I am now in grade twelve. I'll show you some of the things. One of the things that really surprises me is how immature my writing sounds. I wrote about each one of my friends, and my boyfriend, and I sound so pathetic and little. I want to redo it, but I think I would have to start a whole new website to do that, because this one is so close to my heart that I can't bear to lose even a single tiny bit of it. For Example: Ten To One(THEN) Ten Random Things About Me:
1. I love photography. 2. I am an activist. 3. I love to be busy. 4. I can't live life without music. 5. I am a paradox. 6. I love fruit. 7. I have a terribly bad back and knees. 8. I go to Calgary three times a year. 9. I have two nephews. 10. I don't like milk. *These are all the same but one, and more will change soon, I am feeling.*
Nine ways to win my heart:
1. Have a good sense of humour. 2. Let me know you care about me. 3. Respect me. 4. Be there for me. 5. Talk to me. 6. Be able to have fun just doing nothing. 7. Just sit and chill with me. 8. Be a romantic. I know, gushy, but it gets me. 9. Don't hurt my friends. *It's so strange to me that some of these things have fallen by the wayside in retrospect, but I am still happy, and I still leave them the same in my updated list.*
Eight things I want to do before I die:
1. Go to University. 2. Have a child. 3. Go to Africa. 4. Publish my book. 5. Watch a sunrise more than once. 6. Run a marathon. 7. Write music. 8. Live closer to my Dad. *All of these are the same, and none of them have been achieved yet, since two years ago.*
Seven Ways to Annoy Me:
1. Not giving me space when I need it. 2. Talking constantly when I need silence. 3. Lie to me. 4. Hurt my friends. 5. Blow my trust. 6. Blow off something I think is big. 7. Ignore me. *These will be the same forever.*
Six Things I really want to get:
1. An alto sax all my own. 2. A clarinet. 3. Enough money for Driver's Ed. 4. Enough money for Europe. 5. A Bare Naked Ladies ticket. 6. An ipod with more space. *All of these have been achieved, which is interesting.*
Five things I'm afraid of:
1. Fear. 2. Failing. 3. Being attacked. 4. Losing my memory. 5. Being in a plane crash. *These will be the same forever also.*
Four Favourite Items in my room:
1. My books. 2. My music. 3. My bed (wow that counts for a lot) 4. My window. *Only number one has changed, to be more all encompassing.*
Three things I do everyday:
1. Brush my teeth. 2. MSN. 3. Listen to music. *Number two is so wrong.*
Two things I want to do right now:
1. Have people over. 2. Play piano. *This is silly anyway, it basically changes on the hour.*
One confession you must make:
1. You hate drugs. *Always.*
Ten To One (NOW) Ten Random Things About Me:
1. I love photography. 2. I am an activist. 3. I love to be busy. 4. I can't live life without music. 5. I am a paradox. 6. I love fruit. 7. I have a terribly bad back and knees. 8. I go to Calgary three times a year. 9. I have two nephews who probably don't know who I am anymore. 10. I don't like milk.
Nine ways to win my heart:
1. Have a good sense of humour. 2. Let me know you care about me. 3. Respect me. 4. Be there for me. 5. Talk to me. 6. Be able to have fun just doing nothing. 7. Just sit and chill with me. 8. Be a romantic. I know, gushy, but it gets me. 9. Don't hurt my friends.
Eight things I want to do before I die:
1. Go to University. 2. Have a child. 3. Go to Africa. 4. Publish my book. 5. Watch a sunrise more than once. 6. Run a marathon. 7. Write music. 8. Live closer to my Dad.
Seven Ways to Annoy Me:
1. Not giving me space when I need it. 2. Talking constantly when I need silence. 3. Lie to me. 4. Hurt my friends. 5. Blow my trust. 6. Blow off something I think is big. 7. Ignore me.
Six Things I really want to get:
1. Into a Fine Arts program at university. 2. A super-original, artsy, 'it SCREAMS Becca' prom dress. 3. A full colour yearbook. 4. Extra Time in my day. 5. A good night's sleep. 6. A tripod.
Five things I'm afraid of:
1. Fear. 2. Failing. 3. Being attacked. 4. Losing my memory. 5. Being in a plane crash.
Four Favourite Items in my room:
1. Everything on my shelves. (this is basically everything that is most important to me in a nutshell. Every romantic thing Andrew has ever given me, all my photo albums and scrapbook albums, books, and my artwork.) 2. My music. 3. My bed (wow that counts for a lot) 4. My window.
Three things I do everyday:
1. Brush my teeth. 2. Read. 3. Listen to music.
Two things I want to do right now:
1. Find out what is going on with Kate and Sherry. 2. Read.
One confession you must make:
1. You hate drugs.
I'd also like to do a little update whereas I haven't been on here since January. I am still dating the same guy, and am very happy about it. It's been over two years. We celebrated our anniversary on June 16th and he sent me on a scavenger hunt that I will never forget. I went to Europe this March Break and had the time of my life with 80 other students from my school. I want to go back so bad. I got into the Spring Musical, Children of Eden, all my myself, and even got a line. I was Seth's wife. I won two awards at KV's first academic awards ceremony: One for Excellence in English and one for Excellence in Visual Art. I made it to track and field provincials for triple jump, and came in fifth. I got a job through the youth apprenticeship program and became a teller at Bayview Credit Union. I came out of grade 11 with a 98% average, top in the grade. I also realized my lifelong artistic goal for KVHS: I painted a mural. It is due to be put up in THE LOWER LOBBY within the next couple of weeks. I also got Dad's old Nikon D50 Digital SLR with a long essay and some graciousness on his part. I am now researching universities and really like the look of Bishop's, Mount Allison and Western. I want to go into fine arts so badly. I am currently in the process of applying for a portfolio development scholarship program at the Saint John Arts Centre which will almost guarantee me a spot at whichever university I so choose. I am co-editor of this year's 2008-2009 Kennebecasis Valley High Yearbook and my fellow co-editor, Kate, our business manager, Katie and I are fighting our asses off for the first full-colour book in KVHS history. I am running for the KV cross country team and I am SO happy that our race was cancelled for tomorrow because we are looking to get two tropical storms at the same time. I know that runners go out in anything, but that doesn't mean that I particularly want to. I am as busy as heck and I am loving it. My goal for tomorrow is to have enough time after completing the essentials to write on here and to actually do it. For now I will leave you with a poem. It was written by an amazing black woman. And I don't say that she's black to be discriminatory. It's because it goes with the context of her incredible poetry.
Still I Rise
You may write me down in history With your bitter, twisted lies, You may trod me in the very dirt But still, like dust, I'll rise.
Does my sassiness upset you? Why are you beset with gloom? 'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells Pumping in my living room.
Just like moons and like suns, With the certainty of tides, Just like hopes springing high, Still I'll rise.
Did you want to see me broken? Bowed head and lowered eyes? Shoulders falling down like teardrops. Weakened by my soulful cries.
Does my haughtiness offend you? Don't you take it awful hard 'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines Diggin' in my own back yard.
You may shoot me with your words, You may cut me with your eyes, You may kill me with your hatefulness, But still, like air, I'll rise.
Does my sexiness upset you? Does it come as a surprise That I dance like I've got diamonds At the meeting of my thighs?
Out of the huts of history's shame I rise Up from a past that's rooted in pain I rise I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide, Welling and swelling I bear in the tide. Leaving behind nights of terror and fear I rise Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear I rise Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave, I am the dream and the hope of the slave. I rise I rise I rise.
Becca Thomas -- Vancouver, British Columbia. --Human interaction and self-expression define me. My world revolves around those I love, and my art and photos reflect the experiences I have carried out because of my loved ones' influences.--
Far away in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and try to follow where they lead. - Louisa May Alcott
