So It's Been Two Weeks

No longer stressed!!!!!
*does happy dance*
This is wonderful:)
I finished all my exams. English was a piece of cake. SO easy. She gave us a bonus where we had to write the caption for a Herman comic. It was two cavemen running away from a t-rex with two arrows in its neck. I still think that the best one was Kate's, "Jurassic Park Meets Lord of the Flies". Mine was "Are You a Hungry Man?"
French was easy but it had some really retarded multiple choice (then again, so did english).
Then on Wednesday Katie Jill and I did our music performance and I messed up but it was okay. Then yesterday was the last exam, math. It was really easy and I think I did pretty well:)
I'll be finding out about musical soon too so that's good. Audition went pretty well.
I haven't been on here in so long! It's because I've become addicted to other things. Coughs.
Today is going to be the best day ever. I went to the gym this morning (I MUST TELL YOU ABOUT THAT!) later though... time crunch.
I'm going to go score bball in like ten minutes, and then I'm going to go get a CELL PHONE! (yet another story). Then I go to the airport... (again) and then come home for supper and go over to Katie's with Kate and Sher and we're going to play an apparantly very strange game.
Anyway.
Time crunch is very crunchy.
Love.

So I'm a Complete Idiot

So...

I think I just royally messed stuff up.

I'm a complete and total idiot and now I have to pick up the pieces.

Maybe it's not going to be as bad as I think.

Maybe it will all come together.

I really don't know if any of that is true.

I do know that I'm going to have to work hard, either way.

I feel terrible.

I want to make everything better, and I know that if I try eventually things will be like they were. But my stupidity made things be not like they were and that makes me angry. I was so blind to everything that was happening, so unknowing, that I let life float by me and happen without my knowing. Maybe it was good that I got such a slap in the face, maybe it was good that I realized now and not earlier, maybe it was good that it hit me so hard, because maybe it will make me realize how much there really is there that i could lose.

God knows I'll hold on tight. But let it not be so tightly that I lose everything. And pray that everything works out. Pray for forgiveness, for understanding, and for love.

Stress Leave

Well, It's been a while. Christmas in Calgary was good, and having Kassy back here was even better! We went to four parties lol! Andrew's on New Year's Eve which was awesome, mine the day after which was awesome too, we watched Donni Darko!!! Best movie ever. Then we had Reach party on the third, and James Carvell had a karaoke party the next day which turned into karaoke, ultimate dreamland, irving, and tom's house. Lol. It was really fun. Kassy likes most of mine and Andrew's friends which is always good:)
Now there's a ton of stressful things going on because Mom has something going on with her ear which makes her really dizzy, so she's not allowed to drive. It was worse when she couldn't move, but at least now she can help with the stuff around the house. Plus, I had to do our HUGE science presentation with sher kate and katie yesterday, AND my french speech! Both went incredibly well, which makes me happy:) Today is the last of my worries, musical auditions. I'm going with Andrew today at one i think. Singing The Riddle by Five For Fighting, doing the monologue where Wendy tells Otto he's stupid, and dancing the same dance that i was last year. Lmao I can almost still remember it:P But I'm nervous because I want to be in the musical so bad and especially because I didn't make it last year. I know it's partly because I was a grade nine girl, but still, what if I suck? Anyway, tonight I think I'm hanging out with Andrew so that will hopefully take my mind off of it. I hope I make it!!!
Then Sunday it looks like me vik and colin will be working on our English project. Then next week is exams! After exams everything will finally be over. No more musical to worry about, because after exams we find out if we made it, no course stuff to worry about for a bit, because it's a new semester, no huge projects, and even speech won't bother me because I'll know if i got to districts, and if i did, they're not until April! So... I have two weeks and then everything will be fine. As long as I get into Aladdin...
Bec(L)