So...I think I just royally messed stuff up.
I'm a complete and total idiot and now I have to pick up the pieces.
Maybe it's not going to be as bad as I think.
Maybe it will all come together.
I really don't know if any of that is true.
I do know that I'm going to have to work hard, either way.
I feel terrible.
I want to make everything better, and I know that if I try eventually things will be like they were. But my stupidity made things be not like they were and that makes me angry. I was so blind to everything that was happening, so unknowing, that I let life float by me and happen without my knowing. Maybe it was good that I got such a slap in the face, maybe it was good that I realized now and not earlier, maybe it was good that it hit me so hard, because maybe it will make me realize how much there really is there that i could lose.
God knows I'll hold on tight. But let it not be so tightly that I lose everything. And pray that everything works out. Pray for forgiveness, for understanding, and for love.
1 comment:
lighten up. ur 2 hard on yourself.
Others in ur life have to realise that u cannot always be there for them.
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